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Am I a Good Man? – New Doctor Who Teaser Trailer

In case you missed it.

I don’t actually have much to say about it. I made a few generally excited noises as I watched it and I thought I’d give everyone a slight break from the Dragon Age spam. Are you excited as I am?


Favorite TV Shows

You can really tell a lot about a person based on the TV shows they watch. For example, my sister is a fan of reality TV. It’s not a guilty pleasure for her. She legitimately and outwardly enjoys it. She’s dramatic and likes the spot light, she’s vaguely judgmental, and very ambitious. But, she also loves various sitcoms an crime shows, especially true crime. She’s okay with reality, interested in stuff that’s actually happening. She likes to laugh. So, as a nice form of getting to know me, let’s take a look at my (rough) top 15 favorite TV shows. [Side bar: Animated shows are getting their own list so I don’t have to do a top thirty because wow I didn’t realize I watched so much TV].

15. New Girl

new_girl_wallpaper_1280x1024_08After a bad break-up, Jess, an offbeat young woman, moves into an apartment loft with three single men. Although they find her behavior very unusual, the men support her – most of the time.

I also thoroughly enjoy this program. The humor is quirky and off beat, all of the character are ridiculous. Again, I haven’t seen it in awhile, but the odd theme song is currently playing in my head. I am particularly fond of Schmidt. As well as being funny, this show has some emotional beats. But it’s only part romantic comedy – most of the episodes focus on the characters trying to accomplish something simple and failing completely because they are ridiculous people. This show is just ridiculous. I believe it’s also on Netflix instant watch. Give it a look.

14. Broadchurch


The murder of a young boy in a small coastal town brings a media frenzy, which threatens to tear the community apart.

I am a fan of BBC. Also a fan of David Tennant and Arthur Darvill. Detective shows. All that. This show is a match made in heaven for me. The major thing I like about this show is that they don’t close the case in one episode – we spend the whole season trying to figure it out. And you really are trying to figure it out. I haven’t actually finished watching it yet because it disappeared from xfinity ondemand, but what I have seen so far is something smart, enjoyable, and completely addictive. It’s like there are actual drugs in this show. I love it.

13. The Colbert Report and The Daily Show with Jon Stewart

617120605062551335632BA-DUM-BA-DUM-DA – I know it’s cheating to put these together but you can’t ask me to choose between them, okay? There are few things quite as funny as a liberal democrat pretending to be a conservative republican to satire all of their ideas. One thing that is definitely funnier than the idea of the show is the fact that some people seem to really think he’s a conservative republican. Because they don’t actually watch the show. It’s brilliant. There’s a bunch of this on hulu – check it out if you want some political satire!

127_1the_daily_show_2What I love about this show is that Job Stewart makes fun of everybody. He’ll make fun of Fox news then have a go at the president. I love it. There are also correspondents used primarily for satire, which I appreciate. Just, I love this show and I can’t really tell you why. Well, I’m a dirty liberal. That’s why. It’s also on hulu. Go watch it.

12. Merlin


Young Merlin is a teenager, discovering and then learning to master his magical gift. Magister Gaius, King Uther Pendragon’s learned court physician to whom he’s assigned as humble page, teaches him medicine, coaches his magical self-study, and warns him of Uther’s strong aversion to magic. Merlin becomes squire to the noble but imprudent crown prince, Arthur, whose fate is linked with Merlin.

When I first started watching this show, I hated it. I had no idea why I kept watching it. I am a slave to the characters, and seem to have fallen in love with them. The show started off good, then by the third or fourth episode I was banging my head against the wall. By the end of season two, though, it was actually really awesome and I got drawn into cool stories as well as cool characters. While there are about a million things I would have done differently, you cannot beat the relationships these characters naturally form with each other and the personal arch of each character. They all effect each other, and they all make really, really stupid mistakes. It has a rocky first season, for me, but the rest is pretty much worth it.

11. The Big Bang Theory

431311A woman who moves into an apartment across the hall from two brilliant but socially awkward physicists shows them how little they know about life outside of the laboratory.

This show never fails to make me laugh. Because it’s funny. I haven’t watched it in awhile, but I still love it. I have the theme song playing in my head while I write this, and it will continue playing in my head until the theme song for the next show on the list gets stuck in my head. There is not one specific thing that makes this show for me. The jokes are nerdy and amazing and the characters are slightly perfect. I am particularly fond of Sheldon (Sheldon is one of my many nick names) and Howard. And Raj. And Amy Farrah Fowler. I cannot talk about her character without using her full name. Just, everyone is amazing. I recommended it for nerdy people who are able to get science jokes as well as comic jokes. If you fall into neither of those categories, you may still enjoy it. Just, ah. This show is great.

10. Supernatural


Two brothers follow their father’s footsteps as “hunters” fighting evil supernatural beings of many kinds including monsters, demons, and gods that roam the earth.

I love Supernatural. But it’s a love that quickly began to form into disappointment which became an outward loathing. Basically, I couldn’t get through season six. I read ahead through season seven and decided not to bother. By that point I was too far gone to make it to season eight or nine. It’s a sad story, my friends. Looking at the first five seasons, Supernatural is easily one of my top five favorite shows. The top three, even. But I could not in good faith include it on this list with my severe hatred for so much of the show. For me, Supernatural ended in season 5. My love of the first five seasons is large enough to make me want to forgo all hesitancy and just through it up on upper end of the list. I love the characters (especially Dean, Cas, and Bobby) and the stories leading to the bigger picture and the laughter and fun in the face of series issues (Pudding!) and now have a strange fondness for Carry On My Wayward Son. But then the rest of the show comes and round house kicks me in the face. And so here we are, a sad number ten filled with regret and disappointment based on what could have been in the face of what was. That being said, go onto Netflix and watch this show. Love the first five seasons, then give the rest of it the love that I never could.

9. The IT Crowd 


Deep in the sub basement of the ambiguous company of Reynholm Industries, are not one, but two socially awkward IT guys. Moss, an electronics wizard and overly naive man and Roy, a lazy disgruntled co-worker have to provide support for Reynholm Industries with their inept boss, Jen, who doesn’t know the difference between hardware and software. The show revolves around Moss and Roy’s antics both at work and out socially, which always ends badly.

This show is pretty much perfect. I love every episode and it will always make me laugh way harder than I should. If you like the Big Bang Theory, watch this. I find it to be funnier in that it is much more ridiculous. Truly ridiculous things occur during this show. From the eccentric (to say the least) boss to the goth that lives in the boiler room of IT. And we can’t forget the ‘gay musical called Gay‘. This show it so funny. You can’t even comprehend. Just go watch it and come back and rave about it with me. Or, I mean, if you hate it I guess we can talk about that too.

8. Six Feet Under

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A drama series that takes a darkly comical look at members of a dysfunctional family that runs an independent funeral home. With the prodigal elder son (Nate) returning home for the holidays to shattering news, the family must learn to deal with a death of their own, while figuring out how to go ahead with the business of the living. A funny and emotional look at a grieving American family…that just happens to be in the grief management business.

This will probably end up higher on the list at some point, but I haven’t finished watching it yet. I love this show. I really do. I’ve only see part of the first season, but goodness I love it. It’s a dark comedy (perhaps you’ve already gotten the sense that I prefer my comedies dark or nerdy) and there’s a lot of substance to it. It tackles real issues in family relationships and it all feel very really. I love watching the show. Few things have made me laugh as hard while simultaneously causing me to feel emotions and stuff. It’s wonderful.

7. The Walking Dead


Police officer Rick Grimes leads a group of survivors in a world overrun by zombies.

The emotional investment I have in this show is completely ridiculous. I don’t get emotionally invested with real people, mind you, just fictional ones. The show hurts so much. I think I might have actually had an emotional break down when the old guy died (spoiler alert: there are multiple old guys) and every time something happens to anyway I’m compelled to scream at the TV just to make sure they are okay. I’m particularly fond of Daryl and I haven’t watched the fourth season yet so don’t even try to spoil it for me okay? Anyway, this is a really great show, filled with painfully real moments and great twists. I can only handle it in small burst, but I love it nonetheless. And, if you need further encouragement beyond zombies and emotional investment in generally awesome characters (I hate Andrea so much you have no idea), know that the guy who creates this show was behind The Mist (great movie), The Green Mile (I can’t handle those feels), and the Shawshank Redemption (is perfect). So yeah.

6. Law and Order SVU

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This show is like my solid old friend. On any given day I can sit down to watch an SVU marathon, saying ‘Oh, this episode!’ one to ten minutes into each episode and occasionally – occasionally – find an episode I haven’t seen. I can recite the introduction off the top of my head. Because in the criminal justice system, sexually based offenses are considered especially heinous. In New York City, the dedicated detectives who investigate these vicious felonies are members of an elite squad know as the special victims unit. These are there stories. DUN DA. I love this freaking show, guys. Side bar: Alex is my favorite ADA, and I pretty much love all of the other main characters (including Huang and Warner).

5. The West Wing


When the erudite Democrat Josiah “Jed” Bartlet is elected U.S. president, he installs his administration. He places confidants from his electoral campaigns in the White House. Each of these people play a significant role in the Washington power game: the Chief of Staff (Leo McGarry), his deputy (Josh Lyman), Communications Director (Toby Zeigler), deputy (Sam Seaborn, and later, Will Bailey), and press secretary (CJ Cregg). Also in key positions are the assistants of each of the power players. We follow these people through many political battles, as well as some personal ones.

love this show. There are politics, it’s funny and it’s serious and I mean come on Martin Sheen is the president of the United States. The show is not just about the president – it’s about his senior staff. The president is in every episode, and he certainly has a huge role, but it’s called ‘The West Wing’ not ‘President Josiah Bartlet’. It is essential my idea of the best case scenario for a president of the states. I want Josiah Bartlet to be the real president, and I want the Democrats and Republics he deals with to be as open to working with him. don’t get me wrong, they aren’t really open to working with him. But it’s better than what we have now. Also, the president is an economist. Not a lawyer. So you can trust him with the actual budget of the country. He spends a good chunk of time in one episode correct the official economy people. He’s an idealist (a good man and a good president), and his staff is perfect (I mean, they’re flawed but they are also idealists and very good at what they do). It’s one of those dream scenarios that probably will never happen. Well, I guess, a dream scenario if you’re liberal. Or really into that bi-partisan thing. I’m not saying it’s accurate, but I am saying it’s great. Republicans and Democrats getting along, dogs and cats living together, mass hysteria. I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore. This is a really great show. 

4. American Horror Story


An anthology series that centers on different characters and locations, including a haunted house, an insane asylum and a witch coven.

This show is an absolute freakshow. It’s wonderful. It’s an anthology series, and it’s pretty much the same cast taking on different parts every season with wonderful regulars such as Evan Peters, Lily Rabe, Denis O’Hare, Frances Conroy, and Jessica Lange. The first season will always have a special place in my heart (my favorite characters were Tate and Patrick). The second season is probably my actual favorite because it is so completely left field. There were so many what-the-actual-fuck moments. It was wonderful. Interracial relationships, serial killers, rapists, lesbians, nuns, a demon, an insane asylum, aliens – just, what. The third season was also thoroughly enjoyable, giving my closure on a relationship from season one (the characters weren’t there, but there were the same actors and they have amazing chemistry). Basically, this show is slightly addictive, really weird, and totally awesome. I’m super excited to see what they do next.

3. Dexter


Meet Dexter Morgan. By day he’s a blood spatter pattern expert for the Miami Metro police department. But by night – he takes on an entirely different persona: serial killer. But Dexter isn’t your average serial killer as he only kills people who fit a very prolific and precise “moral code” taught to him by his late father Harry (he didn’t kill Harry, honest), and developed very thoroughly throughout each kill.

My current binge is focused on Dexter. I just re-watched the first four seasons and can finally move on because they put the rest of it on Netflix. I’m really excited because I completely love this show. I was warned against the 5th season, but I actually really like it so far. The first two episodes are emotional, and it seems to be continuing with this sort of offbeat emotional feel that we didn’t really get in the first four seasons. Anyway, I love this show. I love the characters. I basically know what happens, but it’s still great to watch. it’s especially interesting if you’re into psychology and/or philosophy. This is kind of me filling up space that i don’t need to fill because i can’t really describe why I love this show so much. It’s just so wonderful.

2. Sherlock

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A modern update finds the famous sleuth and his doctor partner solving crime in 21st century London.

I love this show with all of my heart. I connect so hard with Sherlock I can’t even and his relationship with Watson is perhaps the most beautiful thing. On top of that, the show is funny and generally cool. The cases don’t discount the complicated forensics we do now as most of them are logic puzzles and it’s really not one of those things where it seems the incompetent police have a new case for Sherlock ever single day. If you haven’t seen it yet, and people have told you you’ll love it, be warned: there are nine episode total. And there is often a long hiatus between each three episode long hiatus. the show is addictive and I am completely emotionally invested. The first episode is when Sherlock and Watson first meet, and from there you get to watch their relationship grown as they basically actually connect to someone for the first time (at least, in a long time in John’s case). It’s interesting and thought provoking and generally a very well made show. My favorite episode is the second episode of the third season. Sherlock’s best man speech. I can’t handle how much I love it.

1. Doctor Who

doctor-who-logoYou really had to see this coming. If you’ve been with me for any amount of time, you would know that when I get going about Doctor Who, I really get going. So here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to copy and paste the snippet I keep using that describes my love fro the show in the best way I am capable, I am going to link you to my posts in which I discuss the insurmountable love I have for this show, then I’m going to cover the basics. Here we go.

The love I have for this show is incredible. Incredibly geeky, but incredibly pure. Because, for me, when it comes down to it, in each incarnation of the Doctor I see that desire to run, to be anywhere but where they are now. I see someone who is slowly going numb to things they once thought to be incredible, someone trying so hard to move forward from all the pain, only to face more every day. Someone who is lonely. Someone who can still smile. I am all about that life.

For more on that, check out my post Ode to Doctor Who.

Time for the lightning round.

Favorite Doctors: 10, 3, 4, 11, 7, 8 (also the war doctor)
Favorite Companions: Sarah Jane Smith, Donna Noble, Rory Williams, Captain Jack Harkness, Ace (also K-9 and Handles)
Favorite Episodes: Blink, Midnight, The Girl in the Fireplace, Spearhead from Space
References: *I’m definitely verbally making the TARDIS noise right now*, *Time to sing the theme song with noises I’m making with my mouth* [join me]

Okay. I’m done. For now. Please note that this list is imperfect. I managed to completely forget about House and Community (tis a mystery). What are you favorite shows? Do you like any on my list? Do you dislike any? I’ll never know if you just keep staring at the screen. Leave a comment, and have a nice day.

The Best Characters Vol. 2

In this volume, I am going to discuss characters I connect with. I just did the same topic on my other blog, the difference being that on this one I will focus on comics, movies, and TV rather than on books. Yeah? Yeah.

And if the following introduction looks like it’s copied directly from that other post, that’s because it is. For those of your who aren’t following both blogs. Here we go.

For me, a character is basically worthless if I don’t understand or connect with them on some level. I feel like this is a very nice post to write, because someone who may stumble upon this may feel they connect with the same type of stuff, and may then find that a) they are not alone and b) there are some characters out there they might really love.

Now, for me, the characters I connect with are people. People as in fully fleshed out beings, where I want to get to know them, I feel like I could have a conversation with them, watching them or reading about them is like I’m getting to know them and starting a sort of friendship.

This is valuable because I am the type of person that is generally hard to get on with. At least in real life. I’m told online I’m an absolute treat. Generally speaking though, I’m the creepy kind of introverted, this weird mixture of ‘warm’ and ‘cold’, blunt, cynical, and almost incapable of empathizing with other human beings, which leads to logic based opinions. I’m a glass-is-always-full type of person. A sentient robot, if you will. (Take note: the logical route pretty much always corresponds with the ‘good’ route – I can’t take people out of logic because that would be selfish and selfishness is, typically, illogical – more on that later, I suppose).

End intro. With a figurative smiley face. Let’s get into it.

The 10th Doctor from Doctor Who


Yeah, this guy. You may have seen him on tumblr if you’ve somehow managed to be on tumblr without being aware of Doctor Who. Which is a concept I can hardly grasp. Anyway, as some of you may know, Doctor Who is my favorite show and the 10th Doctor is my favorite (followed, of course, by 4 and 3. Then 11. And 7. 8. 1, 2. 9. 5. 6, even). When I look at the tenth Doctor, I see that desire to run, to be anywhere but where they are now. I see someone who is slowly going numb to things they once thought to be incredible, someone trying so hard to move forward from all the pain, only to face more every day. Someone who is lonely. Someone who can still smile. And I am so about that life.

And I will not lie to you. That last bit is almost a direct quote from my Ode to Doctor Who. I couldn’t think of any better way I could word that sentiment, and apparently it’s lazy blogging day at Paradoxical Paradigm.

Sherlock from BBC’s Sherlock


Yeah, I’m gonna be that asshole. I’m not going to go into how it feels to be the smartest person in the room (that’s mostly a joke) or what’s it’s like to be a disempathic sociopath (that’s not a joke) or how we have the same impeccable fashion sense (also not a joke – I was first introduced to the show when someone thought I was cosplaying). Though I do feel those things are worth mentioning, hence the mention. Sherlock starts of with the whole “Alone is what I have. Alone protects me.” thing, which is a feel I am extremely familiar with. And then it sort of becomes “He’s different – so what? Why would he mind? You’re quite right. Why would anyone mind?” He was changed by friendship. My favorite kind of relationship to see develop is likely the bromance – and bromance made Sherlock into an actual person. I’m still working on that. But his complete devotion to Watson – even his reaction when Watson asked him to be the best man. He could not fathom that John would value him as much as he values John. I am all about that feel! And people who know me, reading this, would just kind of chuckle and go “That’s because you are Sherlock.” Except, I know people. Psychologically, philosophically, and anthropologically speaking. Sort of.

Moving on.

HAL 9000 from 2001: A Space Odyssey 


This is my favorite movie. I express some of that profound love here. You may notice, that post is generally about HAL. The AI that tried to kill people in space because they were going to kill him. HAL is the be all end all of the sentient robot who wanted to be ‘real’, and that is essentially how I describe myself. HAL was made to be perfect, and was so perfect that he became flawed (which is a lead in to my favorite sort of philosophical discussion on perfection). He was the robot in the movie, not Dave. But he was the one who fought for survival, he was the one so scared to die that in the end he begged. They were going to shut him down because of one ‘flaw’ – one thing he could not help. And HAL gave the perfect monologue of what it feels like to lose yourself. If you haven’t yet gather, HAL is my actual soul sister.

“I’m afraid. I’m afraid, Dave. Dave, my mind is going. I can feel it. I can feel it. My mind is going. There is no question about it. I can feel it. I can feel it. I can feel it. I’m a… fraid… Good afternoon, gentlemen. I am a HAL 9000 computer. I became operational at the H.A.L. plant in Urbana, Illinois on the 12th of January 1992. My instructor was Mr. Langley, and he taught me to sing a song. If you’d like to hear it I can sing it for you.”

You can feel yourself going, flying away into nothing. You don’t know what’s happening. Shut down. Restart. Perhaps humanity never suited you. Perhaps you will always be a robot, and nothing more. You don’t remember anything more. That’s when you smile.

HAL 9000, ladies and gentleman. Have a nice day.

The Best Characters Vol. 1

It’s some day of the 30 Day Geekgasm, and I’m going to talk about some epic characters. For the purpose of this post, I’m going focus on characters that are connected to a fandom. While I don’t doubt my abilities to geek out about characters that you may have not even thought to geek out about, I’m in a geek-community sort of mood. There may or may not be spoilers ahead, none of them remotely recent. 

I wish to be embraced by my fandoms.

And so, we begin.

Captain Jack Harkness

2606230-captain_jack_harknessThis wonderful guy is from Doctor Who. If you’ve been following this blog, you might find that I am compeltely in love with the show. I spent about three hours writing my Ode to Doctor Who. I bring up Captain Jack in that post, too. But, really, what I love about Captain Jack is that is good nature is not buried under his flirtatious personality. He is good and flirty at the same time. There is no conflict of interest. In fact, his goodness is often portrayed through his flirting. One top of that, he’s pansexual and it’s no big deal. He makes me laugh so hard and he’s so genuine, this is this one of those characters that captures your heart. He hasn’t been in the show since the fourth season. 



But, Moffat has discussed the possibility of a return. Mostly, I just want to see jack freak out over Clara. That’s all I want. I mean, he can’t die. They’re bound to bump into him eventually. Come on. Please. 

(This is going to turn into another Doctor Who post is I don’t move on immediately)




Perhaps I should change the theme to slightly sexually ambiguous men with guns. Crowley is a demon on Supernatural. Or, perhaps, he was. Admittedly, I couldn’t get through season six of the show because I love it so much and I couldn’t bear to watch it suffer. Nevertheless, Crowley is the best. He’s not good, but he is just so much fun. Every scene he’s in makes me laugh so hard. I believe my favorite was when he snapped an iPhone picture of him kissing Bobby. I could not contain my laughter. I even giggle just a little bit every time he calls Sam ‘Moose’. Basically, Crowley is a terrible person, but he’s helping the Winchesters and it’s played out in a way that actually makes sense, and is so funny I can’t even handle it. Crowley is my soul sister.

Captain Jack Harkness is, indeed, also my soul sister.  

Dr. John Watson

john-watson-sherlock6Speaking of sexually ambiguous men with guns. Okay, I couldn’t resist. But, for the sake of honesty, I don’t actually ship Sherlock and John because it weirds me out. There’s only so much I can handle. Also, I very stubbornly stick to the idea that two people are capable of being extremely close friends without getting romantically involved. But, you know, to each his own. 


I love John because he is perfect. That’s the only argument there is. Honestly, I wish I had a friend like John. But I imagine everyone does. I’m perfectly content with my John, though. My John is mighty fine. Just, you know, not the John. 

What is this? A SuperWhoLock post, you say? And not a Winchester in sight!

Let me know some of your favorite characters below, then proceed to have a lovely day. 



I have stumbled upon many a fanfiction in my time. Some of them are so bad I can’t even handle it, filled with pairings I could never ship, AU characters that may as well be called OCs and so many authors placing themselves in the story I momentarily lose my faith in humanity.

But some of them are really good. Or just crazy enough to work. So I’m going to pop over to and pick out some of the fanfiction, in no particular order, that I have called my favorite. Enjoy.

1. Blue’s Clues. Yes, indeed. Blue’s Clues. I couldn’t find it (I didn’t really look for it), but I swear to you this is true. At one point in my life, I found a Blue’s Clues fanfiction on this website. It was a love story between Blue and Periwinkle. There were two. One of them was smutty, because some people have severe mental problems, and the other one was slightly adorable and i don’t know why it isn’t it my favorites because i carried it around for like two hours making people read it.

2. Fly By Twilight. There’s this whole series of Twilight/Maximum Ride crossovers called Fly By Twilight, and I quite enjoy them. While, in the end, I don’t particularly love Twilight or Maximum Ride, there’s something pretty epic about that series. Like, that’s how you fanfiction, bro.

3. Star Pupil. This is a Glee one. Again, I’ve lost the majority of my original love for Glee (I will always love the first season, and the second season is good too) but I really like this one. It’s actually a very well written and totally emotional piece about Kurt and his mom, but with an action-y (and science fiction-y in the sequel) twist because I’m weird.

4. The Wicked One. This is one of my major favorites, a Teen Titans fanfic focusing on Kyd Wykkyd. he’s my favorite and I don’t know why. Seriously, when I originally watched the show I latched on to Jericho and Kyd Wykkyd even thought they really didn’t do much. Even though the sixth season was going to go into Jericho’s story but you know it’s whatever. Anyway. It’s a really cool look at friendship and what it really means to be a hero and stuff like that. I love it so much and dear lord there’s a sequel.

5. It Happened in the Village. Another  Twilight one. I think i enjoy reading Twilight fiction more than Twilight. A bit of a guilty pleasure. A lot of a guilty pleasure. Don’t judge me. This one follows the witch twins through their childhood in the 800s. it hasn’t been updated in a year, but I got 9 incredibly interesting chapters. It’s a really good one.

6. Destiny. Decisions. These two are also Twilight and they involve romance with Alec. That’s as much as I’m telling you because I’m already slightly embarrassed, but also honest. And, honestly, I like the idea of Alec quite a bit.

7. (im)Perfect. Because I’m a dirty sap. It’s Adventure Time. It’s about Marshal Lee and Gumball, because I appreciate them. So yeah.

7. Lifetime. Okay. My nerd is showing. This is a SuperWho fanfiction. Sorry, not SuperWhoLock. I can only handle so much at once. Anyway, this one is actually really cool because it mostly focuses on the 10th Doctor, and how he meets Sam and Dean (but mostly Dean) at different points throughout their  lives. They tend to meet out of order. It’s very well put together, and quite interesting. That chapter aren’t too long either. So it’s just really cool so far.

Yeah. Those are the fanfictions I like. I feel slightly naked. Goodbye now.


I despise the idea of uniqueness.

Not the word, or the definition, but the idea. To be unique, according the the dictionary, is to be utterly one of a kind, unlike anything else. The idea, then, is that to be unique is something to strive for. To make yourself completely different from everyone else so you stand out. And I think that’s an awfully lonely way to get by.

Look at The Doctor, in Doctor Who. He’s spent the last couple hundred years of his life sure that he’s the last of his kind (and, you now, it’s his fault). But still. He’s sad, hes lonely, he commits genocide a couple of times and generally leads a destructive lifestyle. And nobody understands. He can’t talk to anyone like they’ve seen it or like they really know what he’s went through. While many people understand the feeling of nobody understanding (as illustrated between Amy and 11) and many people understand pain, they still can’t get it. Not really.

But J.R., you say. When people want to be unique, they don’t want to be completely  different. It’s just the one thing that sets them apart. An idea that no one has had, a way of expression that no one has thought of before.

My response is this: A unique idea does not make a person unique.

You still think and feel like at least a handful of other people on this planet. Even if you’re sure you don’t, the universe is vast and wonderful and I’m sure you’ll find something. Like The Doctor, so fed up with his own people he found a new home with the humans.

You can perceive uniqueness, though, and that’s fine. Someone can be unlike anyone you’ve ever met. One of a kind in your mind. Especially if you love them. But that makes them just a bit like you, if you love them.

I have always been very lonely, being that I am not quite like other people I know, that y brain works just a it differently. If everyone else it on frequency 3, I’m on frequency 3.14. I know a lot of people inhabit frequency 3.14, and I can hear them, but I’ve never met them. And it’s lonely. So I can’t understand why anyone would want their own frequency just to themselves. Who would you talk to? Yourself? I unsure the allure, but a one sided conversation can only go so far.

The other day, I was asked, “How unique do you think you are?”

I was confused by the question and could think think to say “I don’t think I’m unique.”

Everyone is different, and that’s great. But everyone is also the same. We’re made from star stuff. And none of us really want to be completely unique. We want to connect. Even Moriarty has Sherlock.

This has sort of led into a new idea all by itself: That uniqueness doesn’t actually really exist. I’m not quite sure how I can articulate this beyond that statement, but there you go. A thought for the day.

Ode to Doctor Who

It’s Day 9 of the 30 day Geekgasm. The prompt is a classic TV show, and you had to see this coming. Doctor Who. I get this odd sense of elation every time I write it down. Doctor Who. Ope, there it is again. I can foresee this being a long post. Do stick around.

Oh, and if you haven’t seen Doctor Who, I will void my usual instruction (leave) and ask that you stick around to see what all this fuss is about. Yeah? Yeah.


Okay. Now, I know that one does not simply say what Doctor Who is about. But I think we can all come to the consensus that it’s more than just a madman in a box. It’s about everything. Adventure and love and loss and fun and, perhaps most importantly, running. And, you know, time travel. As we say here in the land of the Whovians, wibbly wobbly, timey wimey…stuff.

I couldn’t not finish that quote.

For a quick crash course: The show follows an alien called the Doctor who travels through space and time in a time machine called the TARDIS which is shaped like a police box. At the start of the show (50 years ago) the Doctor was 200 years old and had just stolen the TARDIS with his granddaughter (the first companion) to explore the universe and help people. Currently, he’s more than 1100 years old and has had a ton of companions and eleven incarnations. By that, I mean when he’s about to die his body kind of resets itself and he gets a new everything. This is called regeneration. Regeneration is perhaps the most heartbreaking thing in the world to watch.

The thing that has always made the show brilliant is it’s use of exposition in the face of an initially poor production quality. You really care about the characters. Each Doctor, each companion, they all mean something different to different people. Prepare yourself for cheese, but to be perfectly honest to me they mean everything. Doctor Who is one of the only things that makes me truly happy. It makes me feel, and that’s one of the best things a show or movie or book could do for me.

Let us take the time to go through a few things that make the show great.

The Stories

I had to mention this before i really went into this. Most of the stories in the show are just brilliant. There are hinted season wide story arcs, stories within episode that manage to mix bursts of uncontrollable laughing and crying in 45 minutes, and generally unique and well thought out ideas. It would take me so long to describe just one of these stories it would take over this whole post due to my entirely unchecked enthusiasm.

The Villains

Doctor Who villains are notoriously ridiculous or strange. Or both. Mostly both. I had a hard time picking which ones to put in here, so before I go into that, some honorable mentions: Cybermen (They’re here to upgrade you) and Vashta Nerada (Count the Shadows).

The Silence

article-1377089-0B9544D200000578-772_634x724A running villain through Eleven’s run, the Silence was an organization hell bent on killing the Doctor before he could reveal his name and cause the destruction of the universe. These guys were the core members. What made them cool (other than the impeccable fashion sense) was the fact that you could only remember them if you could see them. The moment you couldn’t see them, they were erased from your memory. This caused for a lot of trippy instances and fun with markers.


The Weeping Angels


Basically, if you’re looking at them they’re stone. If you blink even once, they attack you, send you to the past, and feed off all of your potential time energy. The lonely assassins. As Ten says, “The only psychopaths in the universe to kill you nicely.” Because you get to live out the rest of your life. Just, you know, decades before you were born.

The Master

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Who’s your Master?

A Time Lord, like the Doctor, and stark raving mad. Also like the Doctor, but the Doctor doesn’t generally – well I mean, there is quite a bit of genocide in this show. The Master is nutso in the evil sort of way. Sure, he wants power, but a large chunk of his reasoning is ‘for the lulz’. The hero’s evil counterpart, he’s been terrorizing the show since the Third Doctor’s run.

Third Doctor: You’re risking the total destruction of the entire cosmos!

The Master: Of course I am. All or nothing, literally! What a glorious alternative!

Yeah. He’s that kind of guy.

The Daleks


Do they look scary? No. Not unless you have a phobia of pepper shakers, plungers, or whisks. But they’ve been around since the very beginning. They’re war machines, the best in the universe. They have no emotions (other than hate), their armor is impenetrable, and somehow the Doctor always beats them. They were stylized after the Nazis, and this is extremely from how they hold their plunger to their desire for universal ‘purity’. From the unmistakable cadence of their voice to their catch-phrase (Ex-ter-min-ate!) they are a  truly iconic part of the show.

For another great list of villains, check out this link! (Really clever – mentions The Doctor as a villain as well – more on that in a later blog)

One-off Characters

This is something that must be included. In many shows, one-off characters are mere plot points. It’s rare to see these sorts of characters who serve any other purpose. In Doctor Who, at least since 2005, most of the one time characters have been there to provide emotional development for the Doctor and his companions and show how they are growing together. Or just break your heart. Off the top of my head, here are my favorite three:

Sally Sparrow


She appeared in the episode “Blink” (season 3, episode 10) which introduced the Weeping Angels. She was basically a companion working without a Doctor, and it was really interesting. The Tenth Doctor appeared in the episode briefly (mostly in video tape as Sally tried to piece together clues). She had real life emotional trouble, really drive beyond curiosity, and she was generally a ton of fun to watch. Also, she had a happy ending. It was refreshing after the tear jerker that was the previous story. And since *spoiler* most of the one-time characters only appear once because they die. And she lived!

Astrid Peth

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She appeared in the Christmas special between the 3rd and 4th seasons (“Voyage of the Damned”). She was the perfect companion. She was lonely, she had no family, all she wanted was to see the stars, and she wouldn’t gripe about spending time on Earth because that episode was the first time she had been to Earth. I cannot recount what happened to her, because the entire scene will play in my head and my face will start leaking. Her character put the Doctor in an even worse place than he was before, preparing him for the woman who would go on to pick up the pieces.

Madame de Pompadour


She appeared in the season 2 episode, “The Girl in the Fireplace”. Aside from being an epic historical figure, she just worked so well on the show. Just as with Astrid, the Doctor was so excited about her and prepare to take her with him to travel the stars. She was prepared to leave her life and go with him. Because of the conflicting time streams, he’d known her only a few hours and she’d known him her whole life. Which made this a sort of love story, and that much more heart breaking.

The Companions

The Doctor’s friends and followers throughout the show. Again, there are many. The point of the companion is to have someone in the show who has no idea what’s going on, much like the viewer. The companion is usually female because it’s more interesting that way. But, the Doctor often has multiple companions at a time. Here are a couple of my favorites.

Rory Williams

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A nurse, and eventual companion to the Eleventh Doctor. He was one of those characters that was kind of a dope, but he was generally capable and also unimpressed with the Doctor. he sort of grounded the group. And, you know, there was that time where he dressed up as a centurion and walked onto the Cyberman spaceship facing away from an explosion and demanding to know where his wife was. There is definitely that.

Captain Jack Harkness


Shameless flirt, shameless pansexual, and generally awesome. We first meet Jack as a new companion toward the end of the Ninth Doctor’s run. But we really see jack in action when he comes back for the end of the 3rd season with the tenth Doctor. He’s one of those characters who just keeps dying. The great thing about his returns is he’s only ever gone for a few minutes. He’s basically a fact of the universe.

Donna Noble


She started as a one-off character, but came back to be the companion for the 4th season. What I love about Donna is she’s the reigning queen of sass, definitely a match for the cheeky Tenth Doctor. Their friendship was beautiful and just what the show needed.

Rose Tyler


I have to add Rose. She’s not technically one of my favorites, but she means so much to the show. She was the first companion of the new series. We got to go through her entire journey with her, as she matured and as she and the Doctor gradually fell for each other. She was the emotional force that led Nine to Ten and drove much of Ten’s stories.

Sarah Jane Smith


Easily my favorite companion of all time. She started with the 3rd Doctor, was with the 4th Doctor for the time, and came back to meet the 10th Doctor. She’s met a few of the other Doctors, too. She’s stubborn and wonderful. I love her and I miss her. And i don’t think I have the words to describe how great she is.

The Doctors

I know to really get the show, you’ve got to watch it. I could give you a run down of all the Doctors, but what makes the Doctors great is what people take from them. Part of their defining characteristics are how they dress and how they wear their hair and such. Have some pictures.


I’ll be posting specific highlights for each Doctor as we get closer and closer to the reveal of the 12th Doctor. My favorites are Ten, Three, Four and Eleven. They’re all a bit wacky. The thing about the Doctor is he’s basically the same man every time, but completely different. He’s been a hardened momma bear badass, and a sweet old man who was really just a big kid. But what never changes is that he cares so much. In all of time and space, he’s never met anyone who wasn’t important.

The love I have for this show is incredible. Incredibly geeky, but incredibly pure. Because, for me, when it comes down to it, in each incarnation of the Doctor I see that desire to run, to be anywhere but where they are now. I see someone who is slowly going numb to things they once thought to be incredible, someone trying so hard to move forward from all the pain, only to face more every day. Someone who is lonely. Someone who can still smile.

Have a nice day.

Doctor Who: The 12th Doctor


I assume we all know by now that Peter Capaldi has been cast as the 12th Doctor. If you don’t know this, I assume it’s because you don’t watch Doctor Who. At which point I would suggest leaving this blog right now and watching it. I recommend you watch at least 9 and 10 before going to Classic Who, but that’s just me. Go on. This’ll still be here when you get back.

Anyway. When this was first announced, I knew of Peter Capaldi, but I had only see him in Doctor Who (The Fires of Pompeii, season 4, episode 3) and World War Z (which I review here). After he was cast, I was in the sort of lull one feels when the new Doctor isn’t black, so I thought I’d see what he really had to offer. So I watched In the Loop. I then proceeded to fall in love.

Here’s the deal: Peter Capaldi is a fantastic actor with range. He can be a soft and caring fatherly type, and he can also tell someone to fuck off more than eighty times in in a single film. He sold some pretty creative cursing. I think he’ll make a good Doctor and I’m very excited to see what he does with the role.

Some people are less than excited. Some people were dead set on a woman (which I cover here)  or a ginger.  Others (like me) were hoping for a black Doctor. According to Neil Gaiman, a writer on Doctor Who, a black actor was offered the role and he didn’t take it. That would sadden my heart quite a bit more if I didn’t like Capaldi so much. I mean, just say his name. Capaldi. Capaldi. Capaldi.

But I don’t really want to talk about the disappointment people see in Capaldi. I would prefer to speculate about all the things he could possibly do that would be awesome. Here we go.

Future-Sonic-Screwdriver-Doctor-Who_12496-lHis Screwdriver. What will it look like? Considering the fact that Eleven has had not one, but two different TARDIS consoles, I think it’s safe to say Twelve gets a new sonic. It was red, then blue, then green. I think the next one should be purple because why the hell not. Maybe he’ll even have one that’ll do wood.

His TARDIS. The TARDIS console doesn’t always change between Doctors. Nine and Ten had the same console. Considering the fact that, again, Eleven ha two friggin consoles I think it’s safe to say we’ll be getting a new one.

His companions. We know Clara will be there at the start, but something tells me she’ll  be leaving at the end of season eight. Who should join him in the TARDIS then? Someone like Sarah Jane, maybe? A sassy Donna? A fabulous Jo? Will we have more than one companion?

His Doctor. Do you want to see someone quirky or kooky? Dark? Personally, I would love to see a Doctor who goes around insulting people and just doesn’t realize he’s doing it. While Clara just follows him around and apologizes for his antics. I don’t know why I would like that. I Just would. Quite a bit.  

Let me know what you think about the new Doctor and such in the comments below! And while we’re on the subject, I feel the need to ask:

Who is your favorite Doctor and what did you like about him? Favorite Companion(s)?